I worry I throw my fear around.

My fear, stress, and fear have become the defining aspect of my personality. I don't like it, but until I learn to fight my anxiety, that's how it will be. But that's almost part of it. I'm teaching myself to say that "until it changes, this is what it's gonna be like". About everything. I can only do as much as I can do, and I can't keep pushing myself past my own limits. I will do what can be done. I'm always forcing myself to do more than can be done. And now, I am here to stop myself from it. From this point on, I will do only what I can do and after I reach that limit, I will tell myself to relax. To pay no mind to what I can't control and stop being scared. When I was little, I was scared of everything. Well of course, most of us were as kids. But I guess I never really grew out of it, did I? But when I was a kid, my dad would always say to me, "There's nothing to be afraid of." He told me that every time my little blue eyes welled up with fear. And they still do. But he doesn't tell me that anymore. I guess he figures that I know it by now. So I'll do it for him. I won't let myself be scared again. I mean, it's a proccess. I'm still gathering my health and my thoughts and everything. But when I start to worrying, I'll hear that voice in my head, reminding me that there's nothing to be afraid of. 'Cause after all, I'm not afraid.